More Musings... #2

© Gloria Smith2010

Wandering around this way and that... not knowing why I'm not doing this thing and that... think I'll get me a cup of tea and enjoy just doing this thing and that.

My Mother taught me to be "nice;" to have "good breeding." And I was nice, so very, very nice; full of "niceness." A nicer person you couldn't meet... but I had no passion, no outrage, no fire! Even my sense of right and wrong became dulled like old wax on a linoleum floor. One day I found myself wandering about trying to decide if this "nice" life was worth living; trying to find a nice, neat way to die -- not too much mess for anyone to have to clean up after me; had to look my best. That's when passion sneaked in through my back door. I turned around and he was there with a wicked grin and his debonair flair... His wit and charm -- to be continued...

There are very few things in life that feel good and bad at the same time. I just finished forcing myself to exercise. Whew! It's dangerous to get all this movin'... it doesn't stop 'til about half an hour after I do.

I will not die with my music in me only... I will die knowing that it is in you as well... I will die happy then. Thank-you for listening; for allowing me to be truly happy, for happiness is in us only when we create it in others.

I thirst for music as a little sparrow perched on the edge of cold stone bird bath. I drink deeply of its cool life giving waters to soothe my parched throat; to quench this eternal ache, and then I SING -- oh God... how I sing...

As morning tiptoes in accompanied by a Sparrow's song; the sun kisses awake the glorious dawn -- I sigh; another dream has come and gone and I'm alone to face the morn... I will warn my heart once more of love and care. Do I dare to tear the heartache from my breast... and is it soon that I can rest? I scorn the emptiness of another lonely day. I take off my shoes and running barefoot I go out to play...

Tell me not that you love me unless you show me... and tell me that you love me more than you show me. It's important to hear; it's important to say; it's important to show, but it's so important to truly know...

We lead by example and sometimes those who "preach" the most fail the most miserably. Perhaps that's why they know how to preach the best sermons to the rest of us. Perhaps to pay pennance for their sin... But if we watch the simple, silent few who love and do and do not say, and yet they pay the price of sacrifice and servitude, and make the sun to shine each day in some small way. They are the Heroes of this life unseen... but there is one who sees, and in the end will lift them up, and they who have nursed their bitter cup, will drink new wine through endless time.

I tried to forget and could not, so I forgave and would not remember...

Daylight comes through windows shut against it, as reality comes through dreams barred against it, and I come into the new day -- a chance once more to play this dangerous game of life. Shall I win? Who's to say? But you will know that I have played...

Tatoos

Pain has transformed the ordinary

Into the extraordinary

Pain has kissed the eternal

External ecstacy reigns

Relief was sought from the God of self

The horror of the mundane!

Freedom from life's pain

From its crushing insane weight

Is in love only

Mysterious wanderings of my mind find me in many mysterious places, and it pleases me to wander thus, but I must wonder why it's so...

Your voice tender and strong is the most lovely music my heart has ever heard... Loving you is the most beautiful music my heart has ever composed... I will sing my song of longing for you always. ;) Glo

Need a smile my Friend?? Don't have one? Someone stole yours! Why that... Don't worry Honey... you can have one of MINE! Here you go! :) :) :) :) :) Yeah, I'm the generous type! I threw in a few extra. Now next time you need one you'll have a few to spare. Just whip one out and smack it on your lips! Oh ha ha!

Glo